A letter to a mother

Hi, you don’t know me and I have no name – at least not yet. I am new here and I wanted to introduce myself. A couple of days ago I moved in after you had a one night thing with that guy you met at the bar. (I think you might have drank a little too much) regardless here I am and I am so excited to get to know you! I just want to say that I am a girl and I expect the frilly dresses and dolls I have heard so much about. I can’t wait for all the firsts we will get to enjoy together. You know things like prom, my first boyfriend, getting my ears pierced. I am really, really excited to meet you. I know you will be the best mother ever.  Don’t worry I will be a good girl; I won’t cry too much or pull your hair. I won’t be a lot of trouble because I know you don’t like that. I am sure you are scared but I am too! It’s a big world outside of my little room and I am not ready to face it quite yet. Give me a couple more months and I will come out kicking a screaming ready to face the world with you by my side. Things will be tough at first but we can do it because we will find you a superhero to be your husband and my daddy. He better like pink or I will have nothing to do with him. Ooohhh when I turn one can I have a super big birthday cake?? No less than four feet tall. I do deserve the best mommy because I am your little princess……..

Mommy??? What are you doing?? You are poking me…..MOMMY!!!! Make it stop!!! Something’s hurting me!!! Mommies please help me!!!! I can’t take it….Mommy…..

 

Hi mommy it’s me again…I was really hurting for a while and I was really confused. But I get it now you didn’t want me…Why?? I was really excited to meet you. What did I do wrong?? I know you must be really sad about what happened so I will reassure you, I am ok the pain didn’t last too long. I am safe and sound now and no one will ever hurt me again. I have a question for you though….did you realize I was crying mommy? Did you see me on that table or was I invisible to you??? Mommy did you not read my letter? There where so many fun things for us to do together. Was I not right? Did you want someone else to play with?? I was really hurt and angry for a while but Jesus helped me feel better. He plays with me mommy; he is the best daddy in the whole wide world. And I have a grandpa now to. He is really nice but his eyes are happy yet so sad when he looks at me. There are a bunch of other babies here to.  Was there no mommy’s who loved them either? They want me to tell you to tell their mommy’s that it’s ok. We are all so happy, but we all miss our mommy’s a lot.

Well mommy I have to go now, I promise I won’t bother you again. I just want to say I love you mommy and I won’t forget you even though you might forget me.

I forgive you mommy

Love baby.