Tuesday, January 29, 2013


A letter to a mother

Hi, you don’t know me and I have no name – at least not yet. I am new here and I wanted to introduce myself. A couple of days ago I moved in after you had a one night thing with that guy you met at the bar. (I think you might have drank a little too much) regardless here I am and I am so excited to get to know you! I just want to say that I am a girl and I expect the frilly dresses and dolls I have heard so much about. I can’t wait for all the firsts we will get to enjoy together. You know things like prom, my first boyfriend, getting my ears pierced. I am really, really excited to meet you. I know you will be the best mother ever.  Don’t worry I will be a good girl; I won’t cry too much or pull your hair. I won’t be a lot of trouble because I know you don’t like that. I am sure you are scared but I am too! It’s a big world outside of my little room and I am not ready to face it quite yet. Give me a couple more months and I will come out kicking a screaming ready to face the world with you by my side. Things will be tough at first but we can do it because we will find you a superhero to be your husband and my daddy. He better like pink or I will have nothing to do with him. Ooohhh when I turn one can I have a super big birthday cake?? No less than four feet tall. I do deserve the best mommy because I am your little princess……..

Mommy??? What are you doing?? You are poking me…..MOMMY!!!! Make it stop!!! Something’s hurting me!!! Mommies please help me!!!! I can’t take it….Mommy…..

 

Hi mommy it’s me again…I was really hurting for a while and I was really confused. But I get it now you didn’t want me…Why?? I was really excited to meet you. What did I do wrong?? I know you must be really sad about what happened so I will reassure you, I am ok the pain didn’t last too long. I am safe and sound now and no one will ever hurt me again. I have a question for you though….did you realize I was crying mommy? Did you see me on that table or was I invisible to you??? Mommy did you not read my letter? There where so many fun things for us to do together. Was I not right? Did you want someone else to play with?? I was really hurt and angry for a while but Jesus helped me feel better. He plays with me mommy; he is the best daddy in the whole wide world. And I have a grandpa now to. He is really nice but his eyes are happy yet so sad when he looks at me. There are a bunch of other babies here to.  Was there no mommy’s who loved them either? They want me to tell you to tell their mommy’s that it’s ok. We are all so happy, but we all miss our mommy’s a lot.

Well mommy I have to go now, I promise I won’t bother you again. I just want to say I love you mommy and I won’t forget you even though you might forget me.

I forgive you mommy

Love baby.

Thursday, January 24, 2013

11 trash bags, 6 siblings, and ALOT of stuff later I am officially moved into my new room! There are still a few things left to do but the majority is done and I couldn't be more pleased with the way it turned out. The only bummer is I lost ALOT of space because my new bed is really low to the ground and I can't fit any of my current baskets under it. :/ I am hopefully going to get new baskets soon. I also don't have a closet any more. :) I realized thanks to this move that I have ALOT of craft stuff: yarn, fabric, paint, etc. I really need to start making things soon. Because knowing me I am going to want to get new supplies soon. :) I also didn't realize just how many books I  had until I moved them into the bigger bookcase. OH. MY.WORD is all I can say about that. I have over 200 books (I think close to 300 but I haven't done an official count yet.) Yikes! I can't fit another book on the case which is bad because I want to go to Lifeway and McKay's soon. I also have books on loan to different people and in other rooms in our house as well as on my Nook. :)

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

I am SO excited, my "A Dream" story (with some modifications)  was published on a widely read blog this morning around 4 A.M. I am so blessed and honored that on this 40th anniversary of Roe vs Wade my words speaking from the view point of the millions of children killed everyday for the past 40 years will be read by (hopefully) hundreds of people!

http://y blogs.knoxnews.com/johnson/2013/01/out-of-the-mouths-of-babes.html

Monday, January 21, 2013

Since today is MLK day I wanted to share a paper I wrote about the issues of MLK's day.
Racial Segregation from the What to the Whom

What is Racial Segregation?

Racial segregation is the cruel and unfair treatment of people who look different from the culturally accepted norm.  Segregation has been around for hundreds of years and has withstood the test of time from the post antebellum South to Adolph Hitler’s view of a “perfect” Germany.  Segregation is a monster that seeks to divide the United States and unravel the finely woven nation that our Forefathers made. When people think of segregation, they most likely don’t imagine an actual creature with a humanoid form. So here is my view of what segregation looks like: I think of segregation resembling a Titan from Greek mythology.  First, its feet are made up of coal black hearts full of cruelty.  Its legs are composed of trees full of hangman’s nooses.  Its torso is full of writhing snakes whose fangs drip the blood of innocent people murdered by segregation.  The arms and hands of the segregation monster are made up of the bones and lives of the innocents and segregationists alike.  The monster’s neck is made up of iron and its head the dirt from the graves of its murdered victims. Finally, the giant’s hair is made up of whips and the white robes of Ku Klux Klan members.

White Supremacy

Then God said, Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness.”

Genesis 1:26

One of the underlying currents in the river of racial segregation is supremacy – specifically, white supremacy.  To some people, white skin is absolutely supreme. It doesn’t matter if you are rich or poor.  This is far from true.  There are so many similarities between people of all races.  Whites as well as blacks can do drugs, be in gangs, dress like tramps, abort, and murder.  These things aren’t defined by skin color. But neither are laughter, marriage, children, hopes, dreams, and education.  Why should a white man and a black man who have the same number of kids, a wife, and a dog be forced to sit on opposite ends of a bus? Or use different drinking fountains? Or send their children to different schools? The United States constitution says “all men are created equal.”  Why then are whites dubbed “supreme?”  The writers of our constitution would be turning over in their graves if they could have seen the chaos in the 1900’s.

America and Racial Segregation

“When the architects of our great republic wrote the magnificent words of the Constitution and the Declaration of Independence, they were signing a promissory note to which every American was to fall heir. This note was a promise that all men, yes, black men as well as white men, would be guaranteed to the inalienable rights of life liberty and the pursuit of happiness.  I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed. We hold these truths to be self-evident that all men are created equal.” – Martin Luther King, Jr.

Human beings are made in the image of God, yet all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.  So maybe that’s why people are racist.  If people would remember that all blood runs red, maybe they would be kinder.  Racial cruelty has been a prominent issue in America since the first explorer touched American soil.  It started with the Native Americans whose land we stole, and moved to the Africans used by the colonists as slaves.  They figured that since they were white, they naturally had a right to whatever they laid eyes on.  God said, “You shall not steal, you shall not covet.”  The early explorers broke both of these commandments with the land and slaves.  Both things were assumed to be fine due to the fact that they were obviously the mother race and much better than the red-skinned Indians and brown-skinned Africans.

                                  Schools and integration

Black-only colleges and schools were almost always poor quality with little funding and many students.  The white schools received the necessary funding to give their students good educations.  The all-black schools were given very little funding to pay their teachers and buy supplies.  The schools needed to be integrated, so a group from Little Rock decided they would make the change.

The Little Rock Nine

On the first day of school, September 4, 1957, a courageous group of nine black high school students were going to be the first to be integrated into a white high school in Little Rock, Arkansas.  The nine students were very ambitious.  Their future career plans ranged from an attorney to an atomic scientist.  The nine, along with their parents, hoped for a fairly peaceful transition.  

On the first day, the school was surrounded by guards who were there to let the white students in and keep the blacks students out.  The school was also surrounded by furious crowds who were yelling for blood (not literally, but they were really mad).  The students approached the school thinking the guards were there to protect them.  The guards blocked the student’s entrance letting the crowd yell horrible insults and obscenities.  After a few minutes, the students’ parents hurried the students to their various homes.  After many days of this, the students were finally allowed into the school for part of a day.  But the people of Little Rock were still angry about the fact that the school board was trying to integrate the school.  Finally, after many months of court cases and cruelty, the Little Rock Nine were allowed to go to school full time with the white students.

Inferior Quality Medical Care and Bad Jobs

In the movie The Help, one of the maids tells a story about the death of her son which was due to inadequate medical care.   In her words:

One night he was working late at the Scanlon-Taylor Mill, lugging two-by-fours, splinters slicing all the way through the glove. He too small for that kind of work, too skinny, but he needed that job. He was tired. It was raining. He slip off the loading dock, fell down on the drive. Tractor trailer didn't see him and crushed his lungs fore he could move. By the time I found out, he was dead.[1]

       Many of the more desirable  jobs were “white only” leaving the many less desirable jobs such as maintenance work, housekeeping, and raising children to blacks. In the movie The Help, there is a story told by an elderly black maid who had worked in many white homes.  She talks about raising her employer’s children like her own because the parents are much too busy to bother with their children.  One scene in the movie shows a little girl being yelled at and spanked in public for trying to please her mother.  The maid hugs the little girl and tells her, “You is kind. You is smart. You is important.” (The Help).  The maids in the south were often subjected to long hours, little pay, and less than desirable bosses. 

Bus Transportation

     Many blacks had nasty run-ins with bus drivers who were usually very strict with the bus segregation laws.  These drivers were often very cruel to the blacks who made up the majority of the bus riders.  Blacks who sat in the wrong spots or refused to move when the bus drivers told them to were often subjected to cruel treatment at the hands of the bus drivers and even the police.  Cruel drivers often made the blacks get in through the back of the bus. Some drivers would even take the bus fair and drive off while the people were getting in.  Finally, a courageous woman from Birmingham, Alabama had enough.             

Rosa Parks

    December 1, 1955 was like a shot heard round the world.  The events of that cold December day would trigger a domino effect that would change the bus laws in the South.  Rosa Parks was tired, cold, and hungry after a long day at work tailoring clothing for white people.  She was hurrying home to her husband and her warm house.  When she boarded a nearly empty segregated bus in Montgomery, Alabama, she followed all of the rules and sat were she was supposed to.  After a while, the bus started filling and the bus driver wanted her to give up her seat to a white man.  She was naturally angry.  She had paid her fair just like everyone else, and was also there first.  Why should she give up her seat?  At her refusal to give up her seat, the furious bus driver called the police who then arrested Rosa.  After being taken to the police station, Rosa Parks was photographed, fingerprinted and finally allowed to call her mother to send her husband “Parks” to pay her bail.  Did Rosa Parks deserve this cruelty?  She was a hard- working American citizen, just like the white man, the bus driver, and everyone else on the bus.  These events triggered the start of the Montgomery bus boycott that lasted over six months.

Montgomery Bus Boycott

Before the boycott officially started, two young black girls were arrested for refusing to give up their seats on various busses.  The girls were treated cruelly by the bus drivers and the police.   A man named E. D. Nixon wanted a court case that would draw enough publicity to get the segregated bus laws to change.  Nixon decided that the two girls weren’t mature enough to handle what he wanted to do so he contacted Rosa Parks after her case went public.  To draw attention to the cause, Nixon decided they needed to boycott the bus lines on the day of the case.

On December 5, 1955 the blacks of Montgomery, Alabama walked and carpooled to their various jobs around the city.  This went on for over six months, amid much resistance from the bus lines.  Finally, after much walking, the citizens of Montgomery got what they wanted.  The bus lines were finally completely integrated.

Ku Klux Klan

                 The Ku Klux Klan (KKK) was a white supremacy group in the South that started mainly during the American Civil War.  The KKK was a group of white men both rich and poor who wanted to keep the South the way it always had been.  The members of the KKK were behind many brutal killings and horrible things done to black men and women who dared to speak out.  The Klan was a very secretive group that forced its members to wear long white robes and pointy hoods to hide their faces.  The KKK members performed many wicked deeds, yet were rarely tried and convicted.  The historian Elaine Frantz Parsons describes the membership:

Lifting the Klan mask revealed a chaotic multitude of anti-black vigilante groups, disgruntled poor white farmers, wartime guerrilla bands, displaced Democratic politicians, illegal whiskey distillers, coercive moral reformers, sadists, rapists, white workmen fearful of black competition, employers trying to enforce labor discipline, common thieves, neighbors with decades-old grudges, and even a few freedmen and white Republicans who allied with Democratic whites or had criminal agendas of their own. Indeed, all they had in common, besides being overwhelmingly white, southern, and Democratic, was that they called themselves, or were called, Klansmen.[2]

Some of the cruel things done by Klansmen include: lynching (illegal hanging without trial), burning crosses (not with people on them), rape, brutal beatings, smashing/ destroying personal property, etc.  All of these horrible things done by the Klan are perfect examples of American racial segregation. 

Conclusion

              In conclusion, segregation is wrong; it is a cruel practice that should never have started.  Many lives were shattered due to the effects of segregation.  Martin Luther King, Jr. had a dream that all men black and white would be seen as equals in all respects.  It was the dream of all men who fought for freedom, whether it be religious or racial.  From the brave men who fought in the revolutionary war to the men who fought the battle for integration, a high price was paid.  I want to conclude with this excerpt from Martin Luther King, Jr.’s “I Have a Dream” speech:

I have a dream that one day down in Alabama, with its vicious racists, with its governor having his lips dripping with the words of interposition and nullification; that one day right down in Alabama little black boys and black girls will be able to join hands with little white boys and white girls as sisters and brothers.

I have a dream today.
And when this happens, when we let freedom ring, when we let it ring from every tenement and every hamlet, from every state and every city, we will be able to speed up that day when all of God's children, black men and white men, Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics, will be able to join hands and sing in the words of the old spiritual, "Free at last, free at last. Thank God Almighty, we are free at last." – Martin Luther King, Jr


[1] The Help
[2]wikipedia.org/wiki/Ku_Klux_Klan

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Hmmmmm....So I think I might be a bit of a hoarder....just a small bit.....I think the 5 trash bags of giveaways (mostly clothes - YIKES) classify me as a hoarder...What do you think ? :) Personally I prefer the word "Collector" It is much more dignified than hoarder.

Thursday, January 17, 2013

50 MILLION abortions since Roe vs Wade.... Let that sink in for a minute. 50 MILLION!!!! The world has been deprived of so many precious lives! When will it end. People morn and the world is shocked when 5 and 6 olds die in school shootings, but who morns for the other MILLIONS of children being brutally murdered EVERY SINGLE DAY? When will it end? How many precious Children have to die? There ar...e countless storys that will never be told. Countless lives that will never be known, and for what so selfish mothers and fathers can live their perfect wrinkle free lives?
This is so very, very wrong. The ground is crying out as life after life is buried in its depths. The founders of our nation that was built on Biblical truths are probably rolling in their graves. I would hate to see the look of pure horror on their faces if they could see what our nation has come to. Is it worth it? Have humans really sunk so low as to basically view babies as no more than trash? Have babies really been reduced to nothing more than fetuses and useless mounds of lifeless tissue? Whole generations have been almost wiped of the face of this earth due to abortions, birth control, sterilization, and euthanation. NOBODY has a right to decide whether or not these people should have lived or died. They should have been able to live the lives they were ment to live. Not have their lives cruely taken from them!

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Merry Christmas! Happy New YEAR!!!! I am so excited about the new year. I am going to have so much trouble remembering to write 2013 instead of 2012 on all of my papers and things for school. I have alot of exciting things coming up this year such as my 16th birthday!!!! I thank God that 2012 was such a great year and I can't wait to see what God has in store for me in 2013.